My Only One

Tuesday, February 27, 2007 Drama

Geez.. Paper today was ok, great, who cares. LOL!!

Hmm.. I feel my life's like a drama serial now. LOL?

Whenever I watch those shows, I see love triangles, betrayal, many many problems, many ups and downs many fights(not all physical) and stuffs. Hmm.. very funny hor, "these are just scripts and confirm wont happen in real life" one lah hor.. Well, you're wrong, I'm sad to say. I learn some more of life's journey.

In general..

If you see me as the happy-go-lucky type of guy, at times when you think people will be sad and stuff, I guess I've suceeded in what i wanted to do. I'm not trying to gain any sympathy here whatsoever. But just making you happy is all I care about when I see you down. =)
Perhaps you know who you are already.

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I know its tough at times to keep your feelings bottled up inside. If you don't want to pour it out to anyone, maybe just write it down somewhere. You'll feel better. =)

Maybe you're just recieving a lot of care and concern from so many people already. You feel hmm.. loved? much loved? or maybe you're just recieving too much attention already, not that you asked for it lah. Or maybe you just don't want to show your concern for other people. See where I'm getting from? I guess most of you will never get what I'm trying to say here. =)

Sometimes I see things. And then phrases just come to my mind, in general, not like anything's happened to me ok =)
Phrases like "The sky's crying for me, and that's why i shed no tears"
"When You smile, all the sadness within me just seems to disappear. But once you're gone, everything just comes back again."

LOL. Got many many more. Dunno why I'm so drama. Maybe i watched too many shows when i was young already.

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Spending times with you, even just talking is so great =) I feel so relaxed and at peace with the world. There's never a dull moment when you're around.

I LOOK LIKE BENG MEH??!!?!
Labels: When i see you smile, You make everything alright.. It's like i can do almost anything

Posted by pika :: 17:28 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Sunday, February 25, 2007 Take your sweet time, Sleeping with the lights on

I've uploaded 2 new songs to the playlist. =)

Take your sweet time and Sleeping with the lights on.

I should be mugging for my paper tmr. But i've no mood to even look at the cover of my notes. How ah?! Oh what the heck, I'll just leave it as it is and go sit for the paper tmr. Principles Of Management(POM) only what, all common sense. Right guys? ;)

I shall not state how much i got from my ang baos this year. If not sure kana tio suan again lor! HAHA XD Happy guessing bahx. This new year sure ain't fun. Just after the new year, I've gotta take exams! And my frens from SP already finished their exams sometime back le. Zzz..

I can't wait for the hols to come. I wanna find work! Can you guys believe that?! HAHAHA!!! But as to what i wanna as.. I'm not sure yet. I don't wanna go back Raffles Grill. It may be at Raffles Hotel, prestigeous and stuff. But gosh, they only pay 5.50 an hour. Too little for me! And it's always night shift, 6-11 pm. Actually, not really bad lah.. But then I won't really like the work place liao. Almost all the old staff has gone to other hotels to work. One of the nicer chefs went over to the courtyard and so only the head chef is left. The rest are gone.. As for the serving crew, only 3 are left from the last time i worked there. So not fun liao. =X

I wanna find a job that allows me to make at least erm.. $600 bucks per month. I wouldn't mind if its more =X HAHA! But hmm.. what job? Sales assistant? Office job? Not sure leh. I want a job that's flexible too. Got so many things to do.. Office job is damn sian. Whereas sales assistant will be much more fun and tiring. I wouldn't mind interaction with people. After all, LRM ppl are nice and sociable, HOR! HEHE! XD

Ok, anyone else wanna find job? Find together leh! HAHAHA

The 2 songs are really nice. Hey, all the songs on my playlist are nice! Haha ^-^ Enjoy ^-^

Posted by pika :: 22:10 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Saturday, February 24, 2007 Thank You <3

Thanks to the lovely Serene for helping with my new layout =)

My teeth so white right! XD But i'm not the main attraction in this pic ;)

Alrights, off to my books again. *sighs*

Posted by pika :: 01:48 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Friday, February 23, 2007 Serene!

There is someone out there for me I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name?
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh? How does she cry? What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada

I'm staring out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

here is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby
'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you
dadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadada
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

Where are you??

"I know this might sound crazy, but I ~~think~~ know I love you"

Saw a red planet in the sky last night!! What does it mean??? >.<

Posted by pika :: 15:00 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Ok, maybe it's food poisoning =(

I guess i'll go see the doc tmr.

4 days of steamboat in a row, how not to get stomach upset. LOL.

From the house, to the cab, to my room now. Stomach has been feelin damnnn unfomfortable =(
Wanna puke, dun wanna puke. But i dun have stomachache =) HAHA!!!

Oh shucks.. not a very good CNY this year as compared to the other years, where the meals are concerned.. HAHA. The food provided during the previous years were much much better. Was suppose to go to aunt's house for some northern Indian cuisine which was catered for her CNY house warming. But oh well.. I guess going to the other party was much better as there were the people whom i click better with. AND YOU!!! HAHA! I kept my end of the bargain =) LOL. I went cuz u went =)

My mom "dabao-ed" some of the Northern Indian Cuisine home =D YAY!!!!
But shucks!!! I dun think i can enjoy it due to my stomach =( WTH!!!! Grrr...

I had a very pleasant surprise on Sunday. =) Thanks for coming. LOL
And suddenly, my whole day lit up ;) wad more could i ask for? HAHA

My stomach hurts =(
Guess i'll go to bed now. Nites!

Posted by pika :: 01:17 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Saturday, February 17, 2007

SHORT!

SHORT!!

SHORT!!!

SHORT!!!!

All the gals are SHORT!!!! But damn cute =)

Went Ktv session at Chai Chee on sat.

Camera fight!

Sighs..

Haiz...

Here comes dancing Pigsy.. XD

On thurs, celebrated belated Val's day with the bananas.

Yes, that's me =) big boss, organiser for the outing =)

The early birds catches the pictures =D

And then it was time for me to reveal who my mortal was..

Mickeyy!!! I'm all yours!!!!

Happy Valentine's day.. =)

Omg!!! My angel's hands feels like manly hands! =X

That's all for now. Happy Luna New Year =)

Posted by pika :: 21:47 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Thursday, February 15, 2007

Backstreet boys songs are actually very meaningful! LOL! Now I'm hooked on to their songs. HAHA! The lyrics are so nice! hee!

My com has been down for the past few days. Thus i havent been online much and my nights were exceptionally long!!! Zzz..

I am actually surprised that fortune tellers can be very accurate sometimes! haha.
I was told that this year would be a very bad year for me. I am suppose to be down on my luck on all aspects, love, studies, health, fate, blah. Wadeva. I didn't bother to listen well as he was saying it in chinese. So Zzz lah! >.<>

Anyways, what can I do? Just sit around and complain that fate is cruel to me? Nah, I don't like complaining. Nothing much can help for certain issues just by complaining. So just bring it!

Hmm.. i just realised that someone has been backstabbing and bad mouthing me. I wasn't aware until ************ told me just now. Well, if that person is reading my bloggie, I DON'T CARE DUDE! SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT CUZ I KNOW I HAVE DONE NOTHING THAT HAS GONE AGAINST MY CONSCIENCE! so yah! LOL!

Ok.. I do regret some of the things I've done, but hmmm.. Even as much as I want to, I can't turn back time. I am not god. I cannot change the things I have done, but i do regret and I know that sometimes people do not think straight at some point of time or another and they just do certain things.

Do i forget things easily? NO! I do easily forgive, but i do NOT forget so easily. Sometimes, its better to just hide what you have inside than just show it. I know and have seen that some people don't think before they speak or do actions, and some other party gets up being hurt, some indirectly.

Sometimes, i just use my bloggie as a dumping ground for all my unhappiness and feelings that i have not put enough thought into. I just throw wadeva things i am fustrated about in here. So don't take some of the things that you see here seriously. ok? =)

Right. I've got loads of photos and things to say and upload onto my bloggie! But i guess that you'll have to wait until i've set up my new com! HAHA! So many things happened since my last post. Let's hope that i can remember what happened! HAH! =x

Posted by pika :: 22:49 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Wednesday, February 07, 2007

My bloggie hasnt had any pictures uploaded for a long time already.

Went out with veron today. Headed to Taka to spend some of my vouchers!!! I have 300 bucks worth of Taka vouchers leh!!!! But i didnt use all. XD

Gotta save some for later use!

Our finer moments at BK

Trying out the jackets at Nike. Nice anot ah??
Veron wants to get it for her bro..

I bought this addidas jacket. ^-^

And some of our craziest moments

A note to Veron: stop spending all ur dough at that same jewellery shop lah! XD go look for other shops ^^,

Eh Serene!!! I saved the HMV vouchers for music shopping with u leh!!! HONOURED anot ah??? Young master waiting for u leh!!!! XD

Posted by pika :: 23:49 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Tuesday, February 06, 2007

FINALLY!!!! PROJECTS ARE ALL OVER!!! Wahahaha

*Hops around the room*

Sleep deprived for the past 2 weeks. But its finally all over! XD

And suddenly, i just realised that i've been staying back in sch till late at night for the past 2 weeks too! HAHA. I just love hanging out with my BSC mates. Life's never a dull moment with them around.

Hmm.. now that projects are over, i kinda feel somewhat.. "empty"

LOL!!!

I used to be chionging my projects into the night for the past 2 weeks. But now, i feel kind free. Bored in a sense too. I've gotta find things to do! Wanna be my buddy? Let's hang out after sch together. HAHA XD

Came home from sch at 5 today. After showering, i fell asleep and woke at 8. =.=

And i'm still sleepy now!!! But dont feel like sleeping! HAHA. Kinda ironic right? XD

Hmm.. what to do.. what to do..

OH YAH! Thanks to Serene for introducing me to "imeem"! HAHA! I so love it lah! I've found so many new songs that i love! XD

I feel like eating Kenny Roger's ribs, soooooo nice leh!!!! Makes me drool just thinking about their ribs. THEY'RE OUTTA THIS WORLD!!!

Oh, and i just found this new cafe that just opened near my house. "Miss You Cafe", the cafe is called. And i just ate there the other day. BOY! The food rocks! They also serve New Zealand ice-cream!!! And the way they serve it hor.. is so much more unique from other places lo!!! I WANNA GO BACK THERE AGAIN! XD

And now i feel like eating Billy Bombers. So long never go there eat le! ='( I remember the time when i still very young.... For the kid's meal, I had to stand on a weighing machine and they'll customize my burger to my size. So cool right??? I'm not sure if they still do that now.. But if it's stopped, BOO YA! XD

Aiyo.. suddenly all the food coming out.. SERENE!! GO FOOD TOUR HOR!!! XD

Posted by pika :: 20:40 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Friday, February 02, 2007

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*SCREAMS*

"Maybe when i wake up tmr, I'll get amnesia and forget everything. =D

How great would that be?!?!"

Ever get that feeling sometimes? Great huh.. LOL

Laughing my sadness away..

And suddenly, all the work i did for my commskills 1 last sem is running thru my mind now.

The topic i had chosen for my presentation was "music"

"... why do i love music so much? It is because i love the lyrics that are written by some of the artists. They speak of feelings, the kind that people have to go thru in their journey called "life".

I do not open up to people easily. The only people whom i open up to are the people whom i consider my thru frens. They are the ones who's words can make me feel better when i'm down. Cuz it's their opinion that matters to me.

However, there are the times where i cant find anybody to talk to or there may be some unwanted company when i wish to talk to that certain someone*. These are the times when music helps me feel better.

Whenever i'm feeling down, i like to listen to songs which speak of sadness. They can be broken up relationships, unfairness of life. etc. When i told one of my closer frens this, she said "eh jon, u crazy ah? U feeling so down liao, what for still listen to sad songs? make u even more sad only." But then, I feel: " I listen to sad songs when i'm down, is cuz sometimes the lyrics that the song portrays, it's like what i'm going thru. It makes me feel that there is someone out there who understands me, how i feel, sympathise with how i feel. It makes me feel better." "

Maybe its just like what most erm what do u call those things..(ur characteristics based on ur name, star sign, those things) say about me. "I choose my frens with much care as i take real pride in the people whom i call my closest/ true frens" i guess this is true. What the heck..

Currently ppl whom i consider my close frens = Serene <3,veron,>To cas & Ls : we dont talk as often now. But u 2 guys know much much more about me then others =)

Serene, Veron: u 2 are the ppl closest to me now =) <3

Currently listening to "i dont wanna miss a thing" by Aerosmith. How do u think i am feeling now? haha. The music that people listen to can tell many things. One of them is how they are feeling at that time. Figure out the rest urself.

This one of the many things i feel music can do. Sure there are much much more. But i just dont wish to say them now. Maybe u can talk to me about music sometime. hee

" I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness

And all the real people are really not real at all

The more I learn the more I cry

As I say goodbye to the way of life

I thought I had designed for me"

Posted by pika :: 20:40 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------
Thursday, February 01, 2007

I really feel that the lyrics of this song suits me..

We're the best of friends
And we share our secretsS
he knows everything that is on my mind
Ohhh...Lately something's changed
As I lie awak, in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says
[Chorus]Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see the feelings that you hide
She'll never knowIf you never show
The way you feel inside

Oh, I'm so afraid
To make the first move
Just a touch and we couldcross the line
And everytime shes near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart
knows, hold her close

What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
or would she promise me
that she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why Don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why Don't You tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The Feelings that you hide
Cause she'll never knowIf you never show
The way you feel inside...

Being damnn emo again.. LOL. I LOVE EMO SONGS! Songs that speak of hurt, sadness, deception, breakup, happiness, anger, LOVE!!!

Who can see the joy and laughter i'm showing to hide my pain and sorrows..

Posted by pika :: 22:35 :: ---------------I Will Be Here For You Baby, Anytime---------------