Sunday, January 21, 2007

Felt so friggin' wierd after that 'strange' incident.

Went to toilet at nite in sch. As i was doing my business, i heard this strange laughter
lik coming from the cubicle. But dere was no one dere. Everything in that toilet
suddenly felt so cold and eerie. I could feel the hairs on my back stand. DAMN
FREAKY!



Was sitting with mark,serene,lou-lin and jolene. At that time, i felt damn
strange. But i did tried my best to act normal. I think it didnt work.



Walked towards the stage area. This part was ok. Serene was doing her usuals,
haha, like 'u know..' ( i dunno if u do that to juz anybody. But to me, it meant?
something? HAHA. But i wont get the wrong idea. i know. hahaa.)


Went to join the crowd. Dunno y, but i felt damn lonely. No, it was because i was darn
lonely, a time of solitude. Everyone was with everybody else. i was alone. Felt so
friggin' Zzz. As they were dancing, i went to sit at the cca notice boards dere. I wanted
to be alone ( sometimes u get that kind of feelin' lah). Then this wierd guy came and
sat beside me. He started talking to me. He was trying to promote this place where
ppl come together to jam. I was like so Zzz lah. But i didnt tell him to shove off or
anything. When i couldnt take it anymore, I went back to find the others.


I really felt damn bad lah.. Yet everyone wanted to dance. So i danced along too lo.
But this time was kinda awkard. I felt really stiff and stuff. I really wanted to stop. But
they kept me going by force. If i went somewhere else, they all would come. Zzz.


The session was over and we all were walking back to BSC room. Everyone was in
pairs, threesomes. However, i was alone again. Zzz. The rest went for dinner. But i
headed back home. No dinner. Darn hungry. But no appetite.


Sometimes, I just feel like going to another dimension. All by myself. A life alone.
Zzzz. What the heck. I really dont blame anyone. But sometimes, i wish that people
will take notice of me?. I dunno how to phrase it..


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I'm kinda getting irritated of this person. I feel that he/she really ACTIONS alot.
You dont really to show off alot u know! Freak you! Cant you at least look at your
surroundings before all those STUPID stunts. If SOMEONE really got hurt, I
swear i'm gonna beat you up. Luckily it wasn't serious. I was damn friggin' angry with
you. I wanted to call you an idiot, bastard, wadeva. It may have been an accident. But
i'll still blame you cuz it was ur STUPIDITY of not takin' notice of your
surroundings before doing those STUPID acts. But cuz of the people dere, i
controlled myself. FREAK YOU!


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Night walks makes my troubled mind feel much better.. But sometimes, I wished I
had someone to pour my heart out to.. ='(
This is really a bad year for me so far.. I look forward, but keep havin' these setbacks
thrown right back at me..
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